Forgiveness

Christians are called to forgive one another. Just remember that.

Something better.

I was still grappling with my sinful ways, so I decided to try that one place you would go downtown. I remember the joy it would bring you after you privately confessed your sins to good ole Padre. I have finally found the place where I belong. I am pretty sure when I went inside that I heard angels singing. It was a beautiful thing.

Isn't it nice to know that you have taught me such wonderful lessons about peace, love, joy and indulgences. I just have 45 more prayers to go and I am all paid up for the wicked things I have done in your absence.

Just a few more weeks until I get to see you James. I can hardly wait. For now, just remember my favorite bible verse - it always gives me such comfort: I love you more today than yesterday, but I could never love you less than I do right now.

The Greeks

Do you remember how you would always stop by that Greek church on the way to Redeemer on Sunday morning? You would sit in the parking lot and try to muscle up the courage to go inside.

I was feeling pretty lousy (after all the beer, drugs, strippers and hot wings)and I was looking for a place that would make me feel better. Somewhere to forget the awful week I had and a place where I could learn how to be a better car.

I remembered the warm fuzzy feeling you would get when you sat in the parking lot and decided to go there.

You really should have gone inside James. They were full on roasting a goat in there and everybody was drinking wine. It seemed like a really nice place and I wanted to stay. I just didn't get that tingly feeling you get when you are at the right church.

Never fear. I won't give up.

For Sale

I've done some things I am not proud of, but I reached an all time low yesterday. I tried to buy love. I thought I had priced myself fairly well, but there were no takers. I've learned a hard lesson; you can't buy companionship. I think I will go listen to some Sufjan Stevens and see if I can make myself feel better.

Metamorphosis

I have been transformed. I used to be a shy little thing, worried about my actions and their consequences. No longer will I think about reaping what I sow. No longer will I be kept down by the man. I am liberated and I have found a way to express myself. Furthermore, I will never regret my Sailor Moon tattoo and right above my bumper was the perfect place. It is the epitome of tasteful.

New Friends

I made some new friends today. They seem like the kind of friends that will never leave me stranded. They would never just take off to Germany and refuse to come back for months on end.

In the quiet hours of the night when you remember the good times we had and when I am off partying it up Hooters style...just remember...you brought this on yourself.

Rebellion

I've decided it is time to rebel. You can't leave me for months on end and expect me to just take it! I had to be jumped by Lynne and Tamara. Jumped!!! Do you realize how embarrassing it is when someone comes to start you and you've got nothing?

I will prove my youthfulness to this world. I will sow my wild oats and there is nothing you can do about it. You know why? Because you are in Germany.

It is a good thing that I am so familiar with the seedy side of Fort Wayne. At least you gave me that James...at least you gave me that.

Freedom is a wonderful thing.